fullness.

this isn't about what will make you feel full. this is something more that what you can put into your mouth.

i remembered how i hated the thought of falling in love in a WRONG way. i had all the justifications (i still believe those are right) that there are no such thing as falling in love the wrong way coz people have choices, that we were taught how to differentiate good from bad, that some people are just stupid enough to put themselves in a chaotic situations when infact, there are choices available. get my point? i've been a product of a broken family so why bother settling for less?

i also remembered how i hated the fact that some girls are still pursuing those WRONG relationships. are they dumb to fall in love just like that? are they so desperate to get into a relationship? do they still think about what people and especially their parents and friends might say? do they still think about their reputation, like being labled a bad name? don't they have the decency to refuse that one hell of a courtship or whatever they want to call it (why did they allow the WRONG person to start with)? or worst, can they not respect themselves anymore?

i even promised that i won't ever ever love someone WRONG not even touch. it isn't just me, you know. i have set this goal of having a DECENT FAMILY (kids, home, those unrealistic things). i just couldn't see myself being in love or even just being friends with a WRONG person. i just can't. and i promised that I WOULDN'T.

but i did.

i ate everything that i have said and promised.

because i am so freaking weak.

and i love it.

***note***

adultery isn't my thing. and it will never be.