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SEPT 08, 2011

This was my Facebook status last Tuesday before going home. I was so exhausted that I almost wanted to log out early and just go home. I wanted to not show up anymore and sulk in my bed the whole day. I wanted to just completely give up. All the negativity in the world suddenly crawled into my sense of existence that everything appeared to be insignificant. Yes, I was so down. What made it worse was I have no one to talk to, no one would understand, no one could relate. It made me think that I was really LONELY. It was really an ugly feeling.

I went home with a sad face, then lied on my bed and watched cartoons. I smiled a little but I know the ugly feeling was still there. Then I read the Bible. The other night I started reading Matthew and that night, I just basically continued. Then the verses said:

Matthew 6:25-34
25 “Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing? 26 zLook at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27 Which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature? 28 “So why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; 29 and yet I say to you that even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30 Now if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 “Therefore do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For after all these things the Gentiles seek. For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. 33 But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.

Even before I finished reading the chapter, I cried. I cried HARD. Not because of the exhaustion but the instant answer to my simple prayer. How God comforted me through His words. How pure His love for me that without a doubt, He showed me how He worked to make me feel okay again. And the realization that God, all the while, really gives answers at His perfect time.

Now I feel better, elated maybe. Struggles like this would come my way again I know but when it comes, I would no longer worry. I have Jesus with me. It wasn’t easy surrendering everything to Him, but one thing I realized, if I would learn dependency, it would be on Him.

WOMAN

FOR THE LOVE OF SHOES

GOSH! I WANT ONE!

BDAY WISHLIST

• Acer Happy One Notebook in Pink.
• Sony Cybershot DSC-W220 in Pink.
• Cath Kidston Wallet, Floral. 
• Iphone4.
• 2 pairs of wegde shoes. 
• Forever21 shopping spree.

NOW.

This hit me. It is really time to start over. But this time, it wouldn’t be something better. For me, it would be something right.

VERSES.